February 2012
7 posts
3 tags
Is this country that awful, so devoid of hope now ?
January 2012
9 posts
Never going to be
Ever going to be
Good enough.
give me courage to jump off the grails.
this is me.
if you can’t forgive yourself anymore, it’s time to take that leap off the grail.
In the midst of the air, your entire life flashes across you.
You say goodbye to the regrets, the ‘never good enough’, guilt.
And no more ‘rest of my life’.
you can never say that anymore.
1st day of work.
i’ve been sitting at my desk for the past 2 hours.
And all i’ve been doing is stare at my phone and trying to look busy.
People are still slowly strolling into the office.
Should i eat my smashed kaya bread?
December 2011
10 posts
2011
In 2011,
i lost almost everything.
And gained some.
will always be thankful to the friends who went thru thick and thin with me.
will always be thankful to the love that i never thought i could have.
2011 passed by so fast - so much rain and tears.
this is goodbye.
goodbye.
Goodbye school.
and now im jobless : /
14th Dec
Walked from uni to Federation Sq with all the graduates.
crazy parents.
lovely people.
YAY.
i don’t know what she did to her hair.
You won’t forget how much you loved, because love is not something easily forgotten.
You won’t forget how hurt you felt, or how betrayed, or how alone.
You won’t forget your promise to not feel hurt and betrayed and alone again.
You won’t forget goodbye.
maps/mdps
not enough to make him stay.
1 tag
strawberries in a strawberry field.
eat me
吃我
makan apa
November 2011
4 posts
somebody got a haircut.
eyebags- we need more sleep.
I want this life for the next month or so.
sausage roll and coffee everyday by ACMI.
October 2011
17 posts
My grandfather is in heaven.
The traditional chinese man, who never judged me, and told me to keep doing what i love.
Thank you for the love in the past 21 years.
im sorry.
In a fit of anger, i tore down the wall that i’ve worked so hard to build.
i see things clearer than ever.
im tired, goodnight.
It’s thursday. time’s passing really fast.
i wish for this moment to stand still.
thank you for the love-mail.
jojo.
you know how you get so upset sometimes the tears just don’t flow anymore, your chest feels congested, and all you ever want to do is dig your heart out?
try to hide from your fear and you risk it swallowing you whole.
i can never hold enough love for every one in this invisible cup.
i don’t know how to love the way you want me to, so i can only bide you goodbye.
goodbye to some.
hello to some.
Today, marks the last academic day of my uni life.
21 years of my life.
19 years of studying.
THANK YOU I NEED A FUCKING BREAK YOU FUCKING FUCK.
mono.
Mono in Melbourne, on a rainy friday night.
I was blown away.
Wintercoats opened the show.
Mono, opened with ‘Ashes in the snow’ followed by ‘burial at sea’. I could feel my heart breaking. That feeling i cannot describe. The yearn to cry, but no tears, the heavy sobs - only in my heart.
Mid-show they played ‘Follow the map’.
And they ended the show...
One of a thousand promises I’m alone and I am stoned from The silence of our empty road Empty road You were a best friend I loved you well Don’t forget The good life that we once had We once had You gave me a safe place But often circumstances change Now I’m gonna take my life back Cause I gave too much of it away
http://theheadlessmannequin.tumblr.com/
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i need painkillers.
September 2011
20 posts
4 painkillers and 1 flu pill later.
im still wide awake.
being awake, is painful.
Healthy morning.
ahhhh, i missed coffee.
but this is ‘healthy living’, right?
oats with honey.
im trying not to gag.
sore throat, throbbing head.
more vitamin c water. please.